2 year check up

so this kind of bites. Aidan had his two year check up and the dr kept measuring his head. aparently its too big. so my poor little boy has to have a MRI. I have no idea whats wrong with him but i dont like this whole situation one bit.

karma

As life gets hard sometimes i have this totally negative thought like what did i do to deserve this. What kind of bad karma do i have. I'm totally not a bad person...but i have become soooo negative! because instead of saying why dont i have things work out for me, i say why does this person get their happy ending they arnt better then me. I saw myself doing that yesterday. it made me realise oooh thats why because that person would never be upset that something good happened to me, if it didnt happen to them. so starting to day im working on a better attitude. not so i get "better stuff" but so im not such a grumpy b word.

keeping it together

so there is this thing you do as a mom, this thing that should come natural. Its called keeping it together. man is that a hard thing to do sometimes. im a single mom to a beautiful little almost two year old boy. he is my everything. no mater how hard things get i find my strength in him :)